Remember

when things were simple?

i was the film major.

then i was the video production major.

then i was the video production major with an empasis in broadcast tv.

then i was the video production major with an empasis in broadcast tv who wanted to end up working on the media crew at the honda center.

then i was the video production major with an empasis in broadcast tv who wanted to end up working on the media crew at the honda center that somehow interviewed terry rossio writer of the pirates of the carribean, etc.

then i was the video production major with an empasis in broadcast tv who wanted to end up working on the media crew at the honda center that somehow interviewed terry rossio writer of the pirates of the carribean, etc, who totally discouraged me from entering that feild of entertainment.

then i was the video production major with an empasis in broadcast tv who wanted to end up working on the media crew at the honda center that somehow interviewed terry rossio writer of the pirates of the carribean, etc, who totally discouraged me from entering that feild of entertainment, and somewhere along the line i ended up as a graphic designer for a photography studio.

then i was the video production major with an empasis in broadcast tv who wanted to end up working on the media crew at the honda center that somehow interviewed terry rossio writer of the pirates of the carribean, etc, who totally discouraged me from entering that feild of entertainment, and somewhere along the line i ended up as a graphic designer for a photography studio who isn't really ready to give up her dream of that first simple step: film major.

what do i do?
my job is amazing, and i love it so much, and im good at what i do, but there are so many rules when it comes to clients.

i used to be able to do whatever i wanted, however i wanted.
but, for the past week, ive had to do the same two collages over THREE times because some R.B. client wasn't satisfied with perfection.
but guess what? MY TIME=MONEY.
and im not sure if i want to waste my time&money over little details like which picture goes where. i want to create and perfect based on my own opinion and inspiration. and film could do that for me.
but its SUCH a hard industy to get into, and ive already got my foot, leg, hip, and arm in the door of photography.
so, again, what do i do?
remove myself from the career path ive already carved out and start over?
or press on and hope that i didn't make the wrong choice?

i don't like growing up.
i miss the days where my parents would buy me clothes.
i miss the days where i was told what to do.
now, i have to provide and decide for myself, and its not pleasent.